“Sometimes you end up never speaking to someone who meant the world to you again. And that’s okay. You cope and you survive. Don’t let your losses keep you back from new gains.”—I wish someone had told me this when I was hurting, y.g. (via imtiredofbeingsosad)
I’d fall in love with you all over and over again, even if it meant suffering from this painful heartache time and time again.
You were an ice box and I an controllable flame.
I lingered my heat and crazed flames around you and surely you melted into me and I into you.
I didn’t need understanding to fall I just jumped into you and into this misunderstanding, erotic, uncontrollable thing called “love”……
Love was something I did not recognize internally, just something that I saw in the physical flesh.
Not something I had experienced first hand, and this thing “love” it started knocking on my door.
As if God had placed both you and I on the same journey, on the same path to meet.
You challenged all the “what if’s” I had created and crawled under my skin and made your way into my center of being, the battery to my life, were I carried all my prized possessions…..my heart.
That same heart who had been hurt before, who had suffered loss, disappointment, and loneliness.
You crawled all the way in and created a home within my own soul.
My soul never felt so at home.
A place where all I could recollect were visions of you, scents of you and stories of us.
I was hooked like a fish feeding on shrimp, I just wanted more and more.
The highest dose of you was never enough.
I could never be fully satisfied until the day you were completely mine, hand in hand, cheek to cheek.
I was scared and terrified for I was a fire, ignited and full of passion.
Fear took my soul and darkened all the corners. For fear is any humans weakness.
Fear tormented my brain for excuses to run, for a love like this is knew but hardly one.
For this love you were feeling was mutual and empowering, but allowing it to overthrow my being meant giving up my fear.
Fear has a funny way to making you comfortable, protecting you, holding you back, of blinding you.
Fear is the lonely voice that screams this might hurt so stay away.
I let my fear speak loud enough to cloud all of the feelings and thoughts.
My judgment was gone, fear had made it’s way in me.
Consumed I was, fear consumed me.
To have standing before you all the perfect atoms forming into one human, YOU.
You memorized me soul and body, for your skin spoke to mine in ways only chemistry could explain.
Your eyes and mine met for eternities to speak.
Your lips and my lips combining made the moon and sun jealous.
Your hand and mine fit perfectly like a puzzle piece.
You were the perfect fit to my atoms.
Skin contact electrified the soul and awoke feelings I had never felt before, so scary.
To se everything you’ve ever wanted standing right before you, fear strikes.
You see right before I met you, others had passed as well and had left scares where I thought to never look again.
Even after those old wounds had faded, your hand gracefully touched them and I felt no pain.
For you were my destiny, a new beginning…..
After you only lust and infatuation can arrive, for no one can experience the same love twice.
For this love, this crazy chaotic love is still on fire……..and has lost all it’s fear.
To the one I love, words can never fully describe my passion and immense love I have for you, my Virgo, my King, my Soulmate, my Partner, my Human.
PS. Thank you, for if not you I would of never have experience such beauty in pain. This love is infinite, and has only worked miracles.